I wrote this after prompt 4 (emotions) from MCP
This is the kind of homesickness where you've rejected something close to you, like home, but then you miss it a lot and you regret rejecting it as you can't go back so all you can do is fantasize/feel nostalgic but at the same time angry with yourself. Not sure if thats an actual type of homesickness but hey ho, its pretty much just nostalgia, still works.
If this piece told a story, lets say the character's name is Bob. Bob is feeling pretty sad and regretful for abandoning his home for a disappointing life, but he tries to cheer himself up by walking in the park anyway, even though he fails to. Then from bar 12, Bob sits down in the park and takes some drugs (painkillers, alright) to help his pain, it makes him feel dizzy (bar 15-16). Then he falls asleep in the park and has a dream about being back home, but not everything is the same. He sees hallucinations, ghosts of the past, and his family members have somehow turned evil and start critisizing him. They say things like "You could have done better than this", "Oh, Bob, you're such a tragedy!", "You'll never be welcome back", and Bob thinks, "It's all my fault." things like that, ye, just so ye get the idea of whats goin on 'ere. Then from bar 32, Bob tells himself, "no use beating myself up over it." Then he wakes up from his daydream thing and feels the same as before. Bob accepts that its his fault, and sees that he has another chance to see his family again; to his surprise, he sees them in the park coming towards him, and tells himself, "I can rest easy, for now."
I did that all in 1 day so there might be a lot of mistakes, but i cant see them because i don't have that skill
So I'm all open to criticism